Inspiration before going back to work

Last year, I received this really hilarious spoof, putting “Survivor” in a classroom and was just now reminded of it after reading this. What really made me laugh, of course, was that this “Survivor” is exactly what being a Teaching Fellow is like.

There are plenty of jobs that require you to multi-task, do thankful errands for little pay, take work home, etc., (ask any production assistant), but teachers are expected to be thankful for it all because of the “joy” the job provides in working with children.

This particular line from this spoof, however simple, really hit home after reading that second article:

The business people must continually advance their education, at their expense, and on their own time.

After reading the article that reminded me of this, I decided that the “Survivor” piece should add to that sentence, “as their salaries simultaneously fail to meet the economic demands caused by simple, everyday life.”

The piece also should describe how teachers are expected to buy anything their classroom may lack.

A Race to the Bottom by Bob Herbert

I am sitting in front of my class as they try not to fidget in the meeting area. My chart, with it’s ready-made, uniform Teaching Point, hangs beside me on my easel. But I know it won’t connect. I know there is more I must do for my students to make sense of this and work with the lesson to actually learn something. But I had not thought this through enough until now. I resent the fact that our majority-ELL school is using this Teachers College curriculum that has to be reconfigured and adjusted at every turn for it to even come close to what our students needs. I am unprepared because I hadn’t thought this lesson through enough.

sigh … I often use my art skills to improvise visuals. But I hate myself when I am this unprepared. The weight of knowing how far behind these students are and how much each moment matters often makes my heart race.

My partner has at times criticized me for being too passionate or caring too much. I feel like a person would collapse under all this pressure if he/she didn’t care as much as I do and feel as responsible as I do. I think then is when people start to burn out. You aren’t completely spent until you allow yourself to become ineffective. I am so conscious of not wanting to remain there – in that moment, with materials I need, and yet still feeling lost and ineffective. I want to do this right. And I often feel alone in that urgency and that desperate need – and that feeling of being so inadequate. I go into some teachers’ classrooms and they look so well put-together and then I hear them say they do nothing at home to prepare. How do they do it all? I struggle just to keep up with all the paperwork, the notes I’m supposed to keep on kids, the papers to grade, the homework to check, the lessons to write (and not just the lesson for each class but also for each small group strategy lesson)…

I agree so much with some of the comments in this post on a fellow teacher’s blog, –  the ELA does not so much test how good a reader a child is, but tests how good they are at taking reading tests. The differences in reading levels among my students is quite significant – I have students who read level E/F (books that don’t even have dialogue) and students who read level M (which has chapter books). And yet some of my lower-level students score better than my students who are on level M (which is grade level). Some of my lower readers are actually more critical readers and better at these tests for various and many unknown reasons.

Three different parts of our curriculum – reading, writing and read aloud – are for test prep. We are to take away one period of two other subjects for test prep as well.  While teachers get criticized for teaching to the test, that is exactly how we are curtailing the students’ education.

If we were true advocates for our students, shouldn’t schools be opposing these tests and organizing parents to do the same? And there are so many legitimate research-based reasons to oppose these tests – whether you choose to look at it from the point of view of ELLs or not.  On the other hand, my school knows historical fiction, fairy tales, fables, legends, poetry, biography, etc., may be on the test, and yet they choose to spend two whole months on Fiction and one whole month on non-Fiction, leaving just days to teach each of these other genres.